My last post

I apologize for the last post discussing my family.  It was not a post that was not suppose to be published.  It was a something I was writing for myself as I am trying to understand my family and where I come from.  I am truly embarrassed that it was posted without me knowing it was. I hope the 9 people who saw it would disregard it.

quick catch up

So my draft box is full of blogs I start and haven't finished. There has been a lot happening and as most of you know we have a new addition to our family. Apparently the Lord wanted to teach me a lesson for being afraid to have big babies because we welcomed Mr. Noah William Odom into our family on November 11, 2009 weighing 9lbs 9 oz!!! 22 1/2 inches long!! He also gave us quite a scare by taking over a minute to breathe after having the cord wrapped around his neck and arm. He is super healthy and happy now! And as of Nov. 24th he grew 1/2 inch to now be 23 inches and 10 lbs 7 oz! We absolutely adore him!!! He has the sweetest temperament and spirit (plus the cutest dimples ever)!
My main reason for this post is also to send you over to check out some pictures we got done. I won free pictures through Pretty in Pink Photography. We got the pictures taken Saturday and she already has some sneak peaks up. Funny thing, my friend Marquette told me about the giveaway and low and behold Amanda who is doing the pictures is married to someone that Rusty knew in Thatcher where we went to college and my friends from high school know Amanda from the pool where they worked. Small World. We had a blast taking these pictures and I think that what I have seen looks great!! Rusty might also set up her web page that will help build his portfolio and help Amanda out! Super exciting! Be sure to check out Noah's photos.

Also, if you hadn't heard. rusty got a new job at the University of Phoenix doing something that he actually enjoys. It's great to have him come home happy from his job. I love knowing that he gets to use his creative side at work! I guess that's it for now. Hopefully I can get back to updating more often!

Maybe I could win this one..

Entering to win Newborn pictures! My friend Marquette told me about it and it would be awesome to win. Check it out here.

polls...Polls...POLLS!!!!

I have several polls for everyone to take part of! Just for fun!
Make sure you do all 3! (They are along the right side of the page.)
Then leave a comment with your exact guess.
The person with the closest answer will win a prize!

When will the baby be born?

How big will the baby be?

and once again...

What will be the sex of our baby?

Remember there is and "almost positive" for a girl and a 80% chance for a boy...

Results will be in when we have the baby!

Remember the winner gets a special prize...

****Info that might help you make and educated decision:***
Brayden was born 6 days AFTER his due date.
Brayden weighed 7lbs 7.6 oz (almost exactly 7 1/2 pounds)
And Brayden was indeed a boy. :)

Baby Shower and other things.

So, I have an amazing friend, Samantha, who is throwing me a baby shower. She is awesome! I wasn't sure if I was going to have one since I didn't know the sex of the baby but there really were things that we needed for this new baby. I just wasn't sure how well a shower would be received or if it was even appropriate since this is my second child. Sam insisted and has now gotten me super excited. There has been a lot going on in our lives and although we are overjoyed with a new baby coming into our home there has been a heaviness there that sometimes over powers that joy. Having this shower is really helping me feel less nervous and overwhelmed and I thank her for that!

Since it is somewhat last minute we sent out Evite invitations through e-mail. If someone didn't receive one, it's probably because I didn't have your e-mail, so if you are interested in going and didn't get an evite, let me know and I can give you all of the details. (It's Saturday, October 17th in the A.M. ). If you did get an evite, please respond so dear Samantha will know how many people to expect to the party. Rusty and I did register at Target and Walmart with things that we need for the new baby. It was fun going through those aisle and imagining how tiny this new baby will be. I look at Brayden and can't imagine him ever being THAT small. Time really goes by so fast.

Brayden's little foot...

Now onto other things...still mostly baby related...
As I have gotten the house (have another post coming of all that I have done!!) and try to get myself ready for the new baby, I find that's it's not real yet. When I waited for Brayden to come I felt I had a better understanding of how my life would change and run daily with a new baby. But now with adding a second. I just can't grasp it. It makes me a little worried about how I will deal with things when the new baby comes. My biggest fear is feeling too overwhelmed and sinking into postpartum depression and not being able to truly care for my 2 children. No longer 1 but 2. I'm sure all will be well since I have such a great husband and other support group however, it still weighs upon my mind.

Some things that I found out that make me kind of sad is that Brayden won't be able to come into the hospital to see me and the new baby. This really breaks my heart! With all of the swine flu problems that have been going on, hospitals across the valley are not letting children and teens come into the hospital unless they are sick or a family member is on their death bed.

DARN YOU SWINE FLU!!

Some hospitals ( like my mom's) aren't letting children the age of 17 and younger in and our hospital isn't letting children the age of 15 and under pass the information desk in the main lobby. I can understand the hospitals reasoning but it just stinks that my son can't come in and meet his new baby brother or sister for a couple days, and that I will be away from him during that time. I imagined Brayden coming in and sitting next to me on the hospital bed meeting his new brother or sister and getting our first full family picture together as soon as possible. Yeah a few days really don't make that big of a difference but it will still really suck.

Another big change going on with our family is that we are short selling our house!
This has been something that has really been on our mind that we have been praying about for a long time, and tonight we finished that paperwork. We realize that it will hurt our credit and what not but feel it is a better solution then to stay where we are at. Explaining all of the reasons right now would take a little too long but let's just say, it has to be done.

I have to say that the timing is a little rough. It will be listed to start showing the house on Saturday and that somewhat stresses me out. We will be called an hour prior to someone coming and looking at our house and I worry about how that will interrupt our schedules. Especially if someone comes during Brayden's nap or something. Then there is the chance that I will be going into labor in the next couple of weeks. Also, let's say I have the baby and the house is still being looked at, well there will be strange people coming into my home with a newborn, during flu (more importantly, swine flu) season. Then there is the fact that if we do sell right away we will need to be out of the house in an allotted time and packing with a toddler and newborn is not always the most fun thing to do. I think... that I think too much! * sigh *

We will be loking for a place to rent and I will be on edge until we find something. I will be on edge until this house sells too. It's just crazy that so much is happening in such a small amount of time. You would think we like this kind of chaos since we had a similar situation right after Brayden was born. Brayden was born, we came home from the hospital, packed up our place and moved out in two weeks from Thatcher to Maricopa, AZ. It really wasn't all that fun and yet we might be doing it again.

As for where we are moving too? We just aren't sure. A huge part of me wants to stay within our ward boundaries because I feel like I haven't accomplished everything that I needed to do and learn in my calling as the 1st counselor in the Primary. That's not my only reason but it's a big one. Rusty kind of wants to look in an area that is closer to his work. We are estimating that wherever we rent it will be for about 2 years and then see where we go from there. If it's longer then 2 years, I have a huge concern for what school district we will be moving into. There are a lot of things going on in my head right now and I am not doing a very good job of sorting them out. I just realized that I made an incredibly long post, once again, something that no one will probably read. Oh well, that's what I get for writing this super late with a lot on my mind. :) I will try to do a better job at updating little things instead of a lot all at once.

Stroller Giveaway!

So I have never done this before but I desperately want, nay, NEED this giveaway!!! As everyone knows we have baby #2 on his/her way and I have been searching for a double stroller that will work with a newborn and a 2 yr old. This stroller is pretty much awesome and can fit my current baby car seat in one side! The only problem... It's pretty expensive... :( Sad day.

However ,I landed upon this blog Two of a kind, working on a full house and found out they were going to give out 1 2009 Tango double stroller courtesy of Zooper . I am really hoping that I win, because it would definitely help out! The color I would be winning is not necessarily the color I would want in a stroller but who can complain when you desperately need one and don't have the money to buy it... So wish me luck!

A wake up call.

I have been very frustrated with myself lately. I recently had such a great spiritual experience and have witnessed from a distance the Lord's gentle and loving hand in others life and yet I have been so negative and frustrated. There is no real reason for me to feel this way and then I feel so guilty because of my poor attitude.

Last Friday I went to the funeral of my Aunt Tracee. Although this was something that we knew would happen it was still so hard to see her loving husband looking over her body. He stood by her side for all these years and was the greatest husband you can imagine. He loved her so much! He married her knowing she had major medical problems, knowing that things would be hard and he was always loving and understanding. They could never have children, they couldn't adopt, she had two kidney transplants, a heart attack and heart surgery and years of dialysis. Yet, he never complained, he only showed loved to her and everyone around him.

As some may know our friend Jami has suffered a great loss. Her husband Kameron (the one I asked everyone to pray for) passed away last Wednesday. He had been fighting in the ICU for 1 1/2 months and the Lord felt his time was done here on this earth. I am just so touched by the amazing strength and faith that Jami has! Daily she updated everyone one on Kameron's ups and downs. As I read her last blog about the day he left this earth to return home to our Father in heaven, I just wept. I could not even imagine going through what she has been through.

I look at my son who is only about 6 months younger than hers and look at Rusty and just couldn't imagine losing him and having to change my whole life. Being a widow at such a young age. She is just amazing! I know the Lord thinks so highly of her and so do I. I am so grateful for the understanding I have about death and eternal ties. The blessing of the temple and knowing we will see all of our friends and family again.


I can't help but look at these two amazing spouses who have been loving, supportive, have such great faith and then think 'what is my problem?' I just feel like a spoiled brat. Having unnecessary temper-tantrums, not wanting to fulfill my responsibilities and the way that I treat my family is just awful. I have no excuse. What is going to wake me up to make the necessary changes in my life? I recognize what I don't like about myself and instead of changing it I complain about it.

I want to be like these amazing people I know. What great examples they are. So thank you Jami. Thank you Uncle Danny. I pray that you will be continually comforted and blessed by the Lords merciful hand! And I pray that I can be worthy of the same blessings someday.

**********In Memory of Kameron Haban**********

Kameron Neil Haban's obituary

July 8, 1980 - August 19, 2009

Our beloved Kameron, age 29, was called home to the arms of our Heavenly Father on August 19, 2009 in Tucson, Arizona after a six week struggle with Lupus in the Tucson Medical Center.

Kameron was born in Honolulu, Hawaii on July 8, 1980. Kameron lived with his family in Hawaii, California and Japan before settling in Sierra Vista, Arizona when he was 15. He attended MC Perry School in Japan where he excelled in academics and athletics. He especially enjoyed playing and coaching baseball and softball. From 1999 until 2001 he served a LDS mission in Phnom Penh, Cambodia where he grew to love the people and was dedicated to sharing the gospel with them. As an active member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, Kameron held many callings in the church; he served as Elders Quorum President of his college ward, a Young Men’s Presidency member, a Sunday School teacher, Primary teacher, Scout leader, Seminary Teacher and was an Eagle Scout.

After graduating from Buena High School in 1998 Kameron left home to attend college at Eastern Arizona College, in Thatcher, Arizona where he met the love of his life, Jamilyn (Davies) Haban, in 2003. They were sealed for time and all eternity in the Mesa Arizona Temple on June 25, 2004. Kameron always put Jami first and loves her more than anything. Kameron loves his son, Kason, and worked hard to provide him with the very best. He and Kason were best buds and were often found spending all their extra time together. Kason was his pride and joy and Kameron was the best daddy to Kason.

Kameron was happiest when spending time with his wife, son and family. He enjoyed spending time out-of-doors, especially if it involved hunting or playing sports. Baseball was a huge part of Kameron’s life and he enjoyed teaching his son how to play. He could often be found in the kitchen and enjoyed cooking and baking for his family. Kameron was not one to sit still and do nothing. He was a hard worker and was constantly thinking of ways to serve and help others. He always put others needs before his own. Kameron’s smile was contagious and could light up a room. He had such a great love for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and strived to live it faithfully each day. He was an amazing husband, father, son, brother, and friend. Many lives have been touched by the love and compassion of Kameron. We love you Kam. You will be greatly missed by many and we anxiously await our reunion with you.

Kameron is survived by: his wife, Jamilyn Haban and his two year old son, Kason Alexander Haban; his mother and father, Arthur and Elena Haban; two brothers, Matthew and Daniel Haban; his grandparents, Alejandro (Mary) Haban, Irene Pascua and Roseline Dimaya.

Donations in Kameron’s memory may be made at any Bank of America in the name of Jami Haban for the benefit of Kameron Haban.


http://www.viningfuneralhome.com/sitemaker/sites/Vining1/obit.cgi?user=127503Haban

*****If anyone would like to know more about Jami and what you can do to help please click on the "Support Kameron and Jamie" button at the top of the blog.
Jami is now left with some crazy medical bills and funeral bills and donations can be made on that page. Thank you!*****